some don't take their pills
others want more
some want to stay insane and others
to forget they are
I just write I am I am I am
-Leonardo Alishan-
Life is going well. I went through a bout of depression a while back - well, it was rather a long bout - over a year, at least, but it took me some time to realize that not wanting to get out of bed in the morning and not finding anything in my life about which to feel happy were tell-tale signs that things were not as they should be.
A visit to the doctor resulting in going on an anti-depressant fixed me right up.
Brain chemicals can get seriously out of whack. There's no shame in treating that.
I'm happy to say that I feel a whole lot better about my life now.
My job is going well. I learn something new everyday and there's never a dull moment. Being a nurse makes me proud and nurtures my soul in ways I can't describe.
Helping the sick is extremely gratifying. Talking to the patients, getting to know them, listening to their stories (never boring), and trying to make a difference for them - as simple as bringing a cup of coffee and as complicated as saving a life - is what fulfills me.
Holding the hand of someone who is about to die; someone with a terminal disease who has chosen not to have extreme measures taken, and being present with them in those last days, is a sacred honor.
I learn something from every patient. I learn about life, death, love, fear, anger, joy, and the beauty of the the human experience.
I have a wonderful son, a loving and supportive family, and friends who are cherished in my heart.
I am blessed.
